Today...

Today I got in a fight. Of course with my qualifier. The context around it was:

"You don't know tough"

This really annoyed me. Not because I'm sitting here feeling sorry for the tough things I dealt with, but because my qualifier seems to be under the impression that I have it so easy. It was difficult for me to explain that in fact, I did not and that I had a lot of stuff going on as well. But, of course the conversation did a 180 and we just went back to talking about how they were feeling and how hard their life was. It is almost as though the tough things in life I went through were cancelled out and forgotten about, which annoyed me to death because they were things I had to learn to deal with and eventually learned from. If this conversation taught me anything, it would be that I am so sick to death of this type of behavior, and even more annoyed that it is being assumed my life is a slice of pie. 

Because our qualifiers are only focused on themselves and the struggles they are going through they assume they can stop everything in other peoples lives to bring the focus back to them. I have heard the famous apology we all hear, but today I was not having it. It's almost like a slap in the face hearing it so much. Then when my other parent was brought into the conversation and it turned into a he said/she said dilemma I had to finish the conversation. How much longer does one have to deal with this? For me, not much longer.  I told my qualifier I was sick and tired to trying to help and that I could no longer do it. 

I know that sounds like a broken record to some of you? Some of you might have said that over and over again, every day, every fight or conversation for the past 'X' amount of years. Well today when I said it I meant it... so hopefully that will be that. I hope that if you are in a similar situation you have the ability to say "no more" and actually mean it.. because the next time we talk I will most likely take that back... I hope you don't make the same mistake. 

Love always, 

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