I'm in a bit of a situation at the moment. I have always lived by the three C's (Cannot Cure it, Cannot Control it, Did not Cause it) however, I am at the stage where what is upsetting most is not when my qualifier drinks, but rather it's feeling so bad for them because you know that they can only help themselves. In a way, I actually feel a bit useless.
While I am very keen to continue on with life, and as I've been told "you don't owe anyone anything, you owe yourself everything" I still can't quite let go. I know I have written about detachment and the importance of detaching with love... but I'll be honest, it is something I am so terrible at doing.. because I'll say "Yes, I am detaching, I love you but I need to work on me and you need to work on you" and a few days later I'm calling up, checking up, and helping out.. something I had vowed to stop doing.
Then, suddenly I realized, I really can't do anything, no matter how much I try to convince myself that I can. And that, truly, is what hurts the most.
Love,
Anonymous
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