Love can be a very touchy subject.
A friend today asked me if I still loved my mum. I think I spent so much time resenting her behavior (not her, her behavior.. important!) that I never really took much time to tell her I loved her. Of course she knows I do, but after recent events, I don't think I have made it as clear as I should have, and that might be something I regret.
Do you have this problem sometimes? It can be so hard, and frustrating and confusing so love someone that frankly makes your life a living hell. Besides the obvious "She's my mum, I'll always love her" I really do love her from the bottom of my heart. She had a hard time growing up, things are going on her life that I know nothing about, but no matter what, I am always going to love her.
That goes hand in hand with my recent post on detachment, and how to do so lovingly. Lately, I have had to totally detach, something that breaks my heart, but there is nothing I can do that will benefit both of us, and no matter how hard for me, I need to help her by leaving her figure it out on her own, while still letting her know how much I love her.
This is not the hardest part however. The hardest part is learning to love yourself, to not blame yourself, and to learn that you deserve all the love in the world no matter your circumstance. And, sometimes, by loving others, we learn to love and treat ourselves well.
Keep on loving, and most importantly, love yourself.
All MY love,
Anonymous
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