Reconcile

Do you find this as hard as I do?

My qualifier has gotten her act together (again) and thinks things should just go back to normal. So, since speaking with her, she has mentioned nothing about her fallback, and goes along acting like everything is OK. Well it's not!! It's almost as though we always have to spell it out for people. Yes, I forgive you, and Yes 'XYZ' but that does not mean I can just go on and pretend like nothing happened.

So we continued our phone conversation, I'm prolonging it as much as possible just for that glint of hope that she will mention something. Not. One. Thing. So imagine how mad I am? And then I get accused to being moody and it's just a fight waiting to happen.

Is it so much to ask that I just want some closure? That I just want her to admit that she has hurt me. Well, in the case of alcoholism, of course it is.

I hope that whatever type of reconciliation you are trying to accomplish is not proving to be impossible. Sometimes we just can't move on if we don't hear it from the other side. I'm just learning now, that I might never not hear it, and I have to be OK with it.

Love,

Anonymous